Pottermore and Other..

So this morning the internet was a buzz with all of the happenings of Pottermore. I accidently woke up at 5 A.M. just an hour shy of the Pottermore announcement. So I stayed up the hour by watching Wristcutters: A Love Story, honestly one of my favorite films. Also it makes suicide almost a favorable option. As does the film It's Kind Of A Funny Story, watching that makes me think suicide attempts seem glamorous. But anyway, back to the Pottermore, I paused the film to watch the announcement video and I must say JK Rowling has such a beautiful speaking voice that I rewatched just to hear her speak. One line that stuck with me was, "Simply... Follow the Owl."It made me so incredibly happy, I can't even explain how happy it made me. So simplistic but yet meaning so much. It brings me such joy to know that hopefully the Harry Potter fandom will continue on.

Last night I ended up talking to my mom about my tattoo because she seemed angry that I had gotten one. She ended up saying that she wished I would have told her I have gotten the tattoo. She also told me that she liked the design and her friend Damien also liked the design. So, so far I am off the hook for being in drastic trouble. But I guess I haven't fucked up as much as my brothers so my mom thinks my little mistakes are honestly not that bad.

I got called into Marshalls today but I couldn't bring myself to call back and actually go into work. I really should have but it was just a baby 4 hour shift. I semi regret not going in but I really am glad I didn't go in. I got to sleep a little more and then go to the mall. At the mall I was looking for a cute summer dress. But all I had gotten was a change purse that I desperately needed and three different pairs of earrings. The my friend Amanda and I walked from store to store looking for cute summer dresses. But seeing that I am obese I couldn't find a cute one that I wanted to try on. I wish I could just shop in Forever XI or Urban Outfitters but sadly they don't have size fatass.

Now for a rant: I have this friend, who is only sort of my friend, who is acting all gun-ho about Harry Potter lately and it just plain annoys me. She hasn't even shown any interest in Harry Potter until this past year and she claims to be such a fan. She also claims to be in Gryffindor when she is clearly a Hufflepuff. She just joins on the bandwagon because she thinks it is popular and cool, SHE DOES THIS FOR EVERYTHING. Don't get me wrong I have nothing against Gryffindors or Hufflepuffs, my own brother is a Hufflepuff, she just belongs there and not Gryffindor. I am just so done with all her phony excitement and fakeness. I just want to punch her in the face. /rant

Anyway I am going to actually pay attention to X-Men. :D

Total Movies Watched This Year: 69

Last Movie Watched: X-Men

An overdue start on my blogging.

Now this is long and overdue. Now that I am finally 20 and I am finally moving on to bigger and better things. I have finally finished Harper and I am finally going to Columbia, my dream school. Those two years felt like the longest that I have ever gone through but to be done it feels amazing. Also I finally quit Jewel and that is honestly the biggest weight lifted off my shoulders. I had felt like I was going to be there forever and now that I am gone I feel that the world is at my taking. Like I can do anything.

Yesterday was my 20th birthday. I am not officially not a teenager anymore and honestly this scares the living shit out of me. I feel that I actually have to step up and do something important. But I am already doing something important. I work two jobs and I have set up almost everything for Columbia. I am working at Marshalls and I also work at the Arlington Race Track, which is amazing. I am saving money for my eventual apartment that I am getting with my friend Coral in August. I currently only have around 1000 dollars. I still need about 2500 more and I am very fearful that I will not save enough to get my apartment. I really don't want to commute to Chicago every day for class. I want to be able to live in the city for the year and drop my books off in my apartment and have parties and just enjoy life to the fullest as a 20 year old in the city.

With everything being set up and ready for Columbia (minus where I am getting my loans but I need my mom's help to figure that out) I am seriously afraid that after my two years at Columbia I am going to come out as a 21, almost 22 year old woman with a degree in Post-Production Film Editing and around 40,000 dollars in debt. And have no career. These are big worries but they are so far off in the distance that I shouldn't worry as much as I am currently about them. I just need to see what happens and roll with the punches!

Also a random thing, I feel like I am rebelling from my Mom. We have been close ever since my sophomore year of high school. Now I am doing things that she doesn't like but she never seems mad. I got my rook pierced in March and she didn't seem mad, it was more of a disappointment that I didn't tell her. Then in May, I got my conch pierced and I showed her and she was like, "well, I am just glad that you didn't get your tragus pierced." Which doesn't make sense to me but whatever. Then yesterday I got a tattoo of the Deathly Hallows with a lightning bolt through it instead of the Elder Wand. Click Here for a picture of it. She saw it when I drove her to the airport this morning. She went to New Jersey for the Weekend. She said we would talk about it when she got home and I am severely nervous that she will kick me out or something. But we will see what happens.

Now that I have vented I feel much better. Until next timeeeee!!

xo.

RIP Buddy

Dear Buddy,
It has only been two days since you died and my heart aches for you. I really cannot believe you are gone. You were my best friend. You were an amazing dog. The hardest thing I have ever done was see the life leave your eyes with your head in my hands. I just wish you were here. Today I walked into the house and I went to call your name and I remembered you weren't here. Half the time I feel like I can hear your toe nails clacking on the kitchen floor. And I just think back to the weekend before and I regret going because I could have spent it with you. I miss being able to talk to you, petting you, even letting you out. I miss your bark when you wanted more Puperoni. I miss your "roo." I miss your floppy ears. I miss your naked butt. I just want to hug you one more time, feel your warmth. I am starring at your bed in the family room and it makes my heart hurt. I remember the first day you were here, you wouldn't put your ears up and you wouldn't eat so I brought your bowl over to you so you could eat. Today at Jewel almost everyone was buying pineapple and watermelon and I almost started crying there. It is going to be hard to eat both of those fruits without sharing some with you. I know I took you for granted sometimes but I loved you so much. I am sorry for yelling. You were my knight in furry armor. And I just want to thank you for waiting for me and thank you for everything you ever did for me. Just being there and listening. I am planning a tattoo in memory of you and Sherry. I hope you are running around together. Also mom got your new dog tag, I know a little late. I am wearing it right now. On the back it says "I'm Caroline's Dog." I miss you and love you. You are always in my heart.
Love, Caroline

Day two of the everyday project!

So today was mainly boring until I went to work. I mainly cleaned and watched Up. Which, by the way made me cry like a baby again. I don’t even know why it makes me do that, other than the fact that it is depressing! But you know, that’s how life is. I then went to work and that was amazing. Up until the point where “God” came in and I thought I was going to die! He kept saying that he was God and that he doesn’t need to pay for that. I was really afraid for my life. I thought he might have had a gun or something. I knew he was a crazy person but in the back of my mind, I kept thinking what if he really was God, and that this really was a test. But who even knows.

I am sitting here watching Sunshine Cleaning with my mom, so far it is pretty good. I like it so far. I love Alan Arkin. He plays the same character practically from Little Miss Sunshine. I also really like Amy Adams, she is really adorable. Well, I hope I get better at blogging as this month goes on. So wish me luck and stay tuned!!

starting a new habit!

So, I feel like this time would be the best time to start blogging again. It is the start of the New Year and all. So I have quite a few resolutions I want to get going with. Also I have quite a few things I need to get done with my lists I have. I will put links to those later, I am feeling too lazy. I want this to be my year, I want to make it the greatest. My goal is to go to the gym at least five times a week. Yay! I really just want this year to be happier. So this is just a brief beginning blog for the rest of the month. Wish me luck :]

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scrubs

So I am sitting here watching Scrubs episode after another taking frequent swigs of my Diet Cherry Coke and I am thinking why not blog. So I finally got my room clean. All I want to do is sleep in here, watch Scrubs, and read. I have no ambition left to do anything. I have to write my final paper for my english class due on the 9th. All I have been doing is going to school and working. It is no fun and it makes me feel like I have nothing left to live for except for going home at the end of the day. Even as I sit here trying to blog my mind goes back to how I have two jobs and go to school and how I feel like I have no future. I just think that I am going after a goal that is so unattainable that I will work at Jewel for the rest of my life. Maybe those thoughts will change but it seems like that is all I am after. God I am sorry my blogs are always so depressing and sad and for of nothing exciting.
Here is something exciting. On Friday and Saturday [11/27 & 11/28] I went to see Bo Burnham at the Lakeshore Theater. It was insanely funny. I still can't tell if he was funnier on the second night or the first. It was amazing both nights. I got pictures but I am to lazy to put them up. I am sure the only people who read my blog are friends with me on facebook so they can see them there. And if there are people who read my blog who arent friends with me on facebook and want to see some pictures then leave a comment and I will put some up in the next blog. Same goes for some Ultra clean room pictures.
I have finals in two weeks. I am kind of nervous because I need to pass all of my classes with a B average and I am worried I will only get all C's but I suppose we will see. I need to do slamming on the rewrite and the final paper for my english class. Get an A or high B on my film final. Get a B on my history final and find out a way to pass math class. Hopefully I can. Grr. Megavideo told me I have to wait an hour before I can watch more Scrubs. I think I might read a little while I wait or I will just go to bed. Not feeling So tired so I suppose I will read.
Talk to you soon